I am gay.

What do you want from me?
I give you everything, I do what ever you ask for,, I grant you my fucking life for you to show off with!
Can't you for once forget about everyone else and stay with me, be with me?
Why does other people opinions have to define my life, why is everything related to how others see me, how they see you?
It doesn't matter how much you try to convince me, it's not love what you feel for me. you don'e love me, or even like me, you just like the idea of me, the idea of having a person to reflect all you want from life on. I can never be you, I will never be you. all I ever wanted from you was to accept me, as a whole, just the way I am.
why cant you just give me that? is it really that much to ask for, after everything I gave to you, and all those things I gave up on for you, for your people, for you miserable life of dreams.

You don't know me, because you hate everything about the person I really am. and it's hard, It's so fucking hard. living every single of my life wearing a whole other person on my face! 

I can't love because of you, I can't be loved because of you. the walls I keep building are there because of you and your arrogant act of perfection. all I want is to break the ice around me, feel the heat, that little flame of emotions! and you won't even accept me loving a guy, how will you accept me loving a girl!! I'm fucking gay! and I have been since I was born, and no I can't change that. yeah you can't take that can you! you can't love me now can you!! even your god hates me! now why won't you let me find someone that will genuinely love me! the whole magnificent awesome wrong person that I am!