my family is just like any other i guess ,, daddy mother and a brother ,, and a 10 years younger sister ..
then there's the kind uncle figure, dad's oldest brother ,, he had a heart problem, so as long as i remember , he hang at home a lot ,, and with a 10 stairs between our houses and mother and father working most of the day ,, he became the friend I play with ,, the guy who takes care of my little childhood happiness,,
the birthdays ,, the cats we used to feed ,, the games we used to play ,, it surly was something ,,
then ,, sometime in my third grade ,, he simply didnt wake up ,, it's so clear in my head ,, a school day .. waking up to mother and father hurrying down there ,, aunt screaming dad's name like he's gonna bring him from the dead ,, I think everybody was in shock ,, I ,, I still cant identify the feeling i had ,, cuz i remember not feeling sad ,, or angry ,, it's like not feeling anything ,, just a normal morning ,, went to school ,, came back ,, a normal day i shall call it ,, except for my mother every two-hours check up ,,

when i remember this one ,, i can only imagine that i maybe was too young ,, to feel sad for a dead man ,,

  

enough playing around ,, I think It's time to write about me ,,
about my past ,,
about the reason why pressing the "no-feelings" button all the time.

and no one shall ever say i lived a normal life, cuz there's no such thing as "normal" ..
and there's no such thing as a happy childhood ,,
it's only how we see it ,, the memories we keep in the heart r always the pretty one ,, but our minds never forget ,, never forget ! 

so it comes ,, no way to shake it up ,,

wt if it's meant to be ,, i've been looking for this chance all my life ,,, to leave that shit behind and be the cruel little bastard i am ,,

how about taking it to the max ,, instead of just sitting back and weep !!
  

and I repeat ,, Music has NO Religion !! 

نحاول كثيراً أن نجد بقايا أنفسنا على الطرقات ..
لكن أليس من الاجدر ان نضع بقايا جديدة على طرقات جديدة ؟  

it's time to take the next step in life ,,

it's time to challenge myself ,,

i got lots of things done ,, i aced everything ,,
satisfied ,, yeah i am ,,
but life isn't about being satisfaction ,, it's about running to the edge ,, and take a big jump to the other edge ..
we have to train ourselves well ,, and i did ,,

now i need my mountain to jump !

how does it feel to be special ?

how does it feel to be special ?

being special on both sides is really hard ,, whether ur super smart, or super stupid ,,
people will look at u in the same perspective ,, they're going to treat u in a hard and quite a bad way ,,

but there's a small different , when ur stupid u wont realize it, u'll just go on "happily" ,, but when ur smart ,,
u'll realize ,, u'll hate ,, u'll revenge the whole society ,,
so wt r u ? 

enjoying life isn't really how u imagine ,,
it's about fulfilling the most of our dreams ,,
reaching the maximum of what we can handle!

A hero shall never save u ,, cuz a hero will be busy saving his girlfriend :/
(screw) all of them !

occupy wall street ....

no ,, let's occupy ALL STREETS !!

take responsibility for your actions ,,
i've been tellin' myself that for years ,,
still didnt have that chance to see how much courage i have to preform it ,,

Waiting .....

glory

I seek no happiness ,, I seek Glory !~~

It's bothering me lately, the way things are, it's not what I want, it's not what i need, it's not Me !!

real bible

John , Luke , Mike , Matt ,,,

they wrote wt we call now "The Bible" ,, in a story line for Jesus life
In Islam the Bible is a book of god ,, then it wont be written by those people for sure ,,

Where is the real Bible? 

me ,, no one else

it's been always a dream of mine to live alone, in my own house ,,,
where i can do whatever i like, however i like,, and whenever i like !
i can spend hours reading books with no one yelling above my head for "wasting time" ...
i can practice sports and re-built my body as i wish with no one wondering wtf im doing ...
even more ,, i won't have to eat when im not hungry ,,
i won't have to go to places that doesn't matter to me ,,
and i won't have to here them whining every time sth bad happened

it's not just a foolish girl speaking here ,,
i want to have my own life ,, my own job ,, my own money ,, my own hard times ..
it's not -and never been- easy to take care for everyone u know just becuz u dont wanna fight them !!

im not gonna wait for a miracle to happen ,, im gonna seek out my own life ,,
everyone should   

blind is ..

being blind means u think a hundred times for each couple of steps u take to ur bed

أن تكون ضريراً يعني أن تحسب ألف حساب لكل خطوتين تأخذها لسريرك 

just bought two new books ,,,
they should keep me busy this weekend ,,,

im trying the Russian literature for the first time ,,, got recommendation from the book-shop owner :)
so thank you my friend , i'll enjoy it for sure :)